My stepgrandfather has emergency heart surgery tomorrow -- he's got a leaky heart with blockages, very serious. He's confined to bed. They need to repair the former and bypass the latter. He's not that far shy of ninety. It means a lot more to you when it's not only a family member who's been a part of your life your whole life, but it's a problem not unlike one you're facing.

I ended a very promising relationship, in an unsatisfying way, as there's too much "other" in my life to really focus on it. So I feel like a heel.

And I'm tired. Very tired. And working hard.

That's all I've got to say today. Maybe I'll have more time to talk tomorrow.